Goodbye.. -sniff-

[CrowDish]

I guess this is only fitting... after all, the board is called "Hello, Goodbye" and it's only been hellos up until now. I'm bringing it full circle, I guess.

Icee said if I was really going to leave, I should post a goodbye thread. She said I should just say bye to everyone, and explain that I don't have enough time to hang around here anymore. (Which is the truth, by the way.) But I decided that there's some stuff that only I can clear up, and you guys deserve to at least just hear my side of the story before I go.

Yeah, I left a while ago. It was just getting to be too much. Checking the board started to seem more like an obligation. As much as I love my LIB friends, checking the threads just started to get so tedious. Around the same time as I noticed this, all that drama started. And it was just like... "Why should I bother with this? It's tedious and it's upsetting me." So I stopped. But I never said anything, because I was originally planning on coming back. Eventually. So I just disappeared, which was a mistake.

Everything started getting crazy after that. People started wondering why I was gone. JohnLennon was blamed, which was partly accurate but it wasn't all her fault. She was just a part of it. (I was checking the parts of the board that had to do with me up until JL left, as mostly everybody probably already knows.) But accusations started flying, everyone was fighting over everything and I felt like it was all my fault. But, on the other hand, I also never asked to be the rallying point in a giant revolution. I didn't know how to feel, and even more, I didn't know what to do. So I did the only thing that made sense to me - I stayed away. I wanted nothing to do with it, so I pretending like it wasn't happening. At this point, I was starting to doubt whether I would ever come back.

Now it's over, but it doesn't feel like the same board to me. It hasn't been the same board as it originally was for quite a long time now, but I just don't feel like I fit in quite the same way anymore. (And that last statement wasn't an invitation for people to be like "No, we love you, stay!" Because I know you guys still love me, it just... it just doesn't feel the same to me anymore, y'know? It's not your fault, at all.) Besides, I've been trying to spend less time on the computer, and I remember how much of my time it took to check this regularly. I'm expanding my horizons. Or at least I'm trying to.

But I'm going to miss you guys. A lot. You're awesome, you helped me through a lot of stuff. But most of all, you guys were (and are!) just my friends. That's what we all need sometimes. Someone to be our friend.

So thanks for that. Thanks a whole bunch. I love you all.

Just because I'm trying to expand my horizons, doesn't mean I'm giving up the internet all together. My email is [e-mail], my AIM name is Mend It WithGlue, my msn email is also [e-mail], and my LJ is at www.livejournal.com/~crowdish. I hope you'll ALL keep in touch with me, because if you don't, I'll miss you too much.

-licks-

Lurrvles from,
Crow/Hannah

May each and every one of you encounter nothing but peace and love wherever you go in life. God be with you. <33.

[Emma]

*hugs to death*

Love you, Crow. I know I talk to you all the time, but I'll still miss you here. I totally understand your reasons, though, and hope it frees up your time more. Really, I wish I had the willpower to get off this thing once in a while. XD

<333

[Zap]

I really don't agree with/understand your reasons, Crow, but I am very sad that you are deciding (decided) to leave.

It just...I know I'm sounding like a bitchy idiot, but "quitting" just doesn't seem right to me...I know you're trying to stay off the computer, but I don't see your need to leave. Just...don't come on as much...Or something...I'm sorry...I want to kick myself, I sound like a preachy thirteen year old (-cough-) XD

You know, you were always the one who really inspired me to do something on these boards. I'd look down at the Who's Online and if you were there I'd be all "OMG, liek...Crow is on! I hope she resonds to whatever I say!" It's just...You had all those posts, and you were really like the leader of all of us, almost, and I really respected you (still do) and now it seems like I never would have made any friends or made even the tiniest reputation for myself on here if it wasn't for you.

-hugs hugs-
I'm sorry you feel the need to leave, but it isn't really the end of anything, is it? Thank George for AIM.

[CrowDish]

-hugs Emma and Zap-

I'm sorry Zap, it's just not right for me anymore. I never realized until I left that you guys really did look to me as a leader, and I feel very, very honored that you looked at me that way. But y'know what? You don't need a leader anymore.
-cries- My babies are all grown up now!!!!

Okay, just kidding but you know what I mean ^_^

[xxobiwan201xx]

*hugs and gives illigal lick* im gonna miss you here...and like zap said thank george for AIM XD

[Sgt.Honeypie]

((((((((((massive hug))))))))

I'm going to miss you!

[LongTallCecilia]

Oh Crow, I really wish you weren't leaving. I'm sorry that you feel that way too. It has changed, there's a different vibe here now, and it can be really awkward. I can understand your reasons for leaving. We'll all miss you around here, leader.
-Big hugs all 'round-

[Icee]

Crow, I'm glad you finally decided whether or not you were staying or not.

I must admit, when you left I was kinda pissed.
I was like "She's running away? She's what made this damn place..and she's just leaving?" But then the whole big discussion about it on msn, made me understand your reasons for leaving. And although I can still talk to you on msn, and aim. I'm still going to miss you very much.

Much like Zap, you inspired me to be myself on these boards. Without you, i'd be one of those newbs, trying to fit in. But I did fit in, because you were here.
Now I take more risks with what I say on the board. Because I swear a shitload (ask patty for more info XD) I didn't feel as though i'd be wanted, as most of the people here are under 14, and I didn't want to upset anyone. (Pathetic? Yes, I am)

So, I just want to say..Thankyou Crow.
I love you lots, my dear fiancee.

-Lick backs-

[ColdKarmaGrl]

Crow, my sweets...

You were the first to ever lick me...and although it frightened me at first, it's almost like a warm blanket now.

But, like Sarah and others have said, you helped aid in LIB feeling like home to me. I can never thank you enough for that.

And don't be a stranger either, hon. Feel free to text message me whenever (IF you still have my #) and even though I'm always away online, if you need ANYTHING, don't hesitate to ask.

Love you!

[Paul'sbird]

*cry* I didn't get to talk to you before the JL thing happend, but as I look over what I have talked with about, I'm happy we got the chance to know eachother.

love ya!!!!!

[Jane]

I'm SORRY you're leaving...

We'll miss you. Bye!

[libra]

oh... I feel so sad about it ... No Crow on board ? so strange ... But luckily you'll be stiil on MSN ... I'll miss you here though ...

[me]

Hey Crowdie!

though I feel sad seeing you leave. i'm also happy. Not happy about you leaving, but happy that you decided to choose for yourself. it's very hard to make a decision you did and I admire you for that.

When I first joined this board I looked up to people like you, zap, emma, Icee (and others and err... i still do haha )Anyway, you were partly the reason i felt good on this board. So I decided to stay.

I really don't want to be all sad, because this isn't the end of the world. I will miss you around here, but i'll still see you on MSN.

So have fun and see ya!

Love and hugs, Jantina

[Zap]

Rivella said:

When I first joined this board I looked up to people like you, zap, emma, Icee

If me and Icee are some of your idols, Jan, I'm scared of what we did to you XDXD

I just had to say this...add a little (more) humor to the thread. Did anyone notice at the end of my last post where I say "It's not really the end of anything, is it?" I just re read it and I totally reminded myself of the cleaning lady from The Meaning Of Life, and I thought what she said can kind of go well into this.

"...but I can't really be sad, can I? 'Cause you see... I feel that Life's a game... You sometimes win or lose... and though I may be down right now... at least I don't work for Jews!"

(it's ok, I'm Jewish, I'm allowed to say it XD)

Lurve You, Crow.

-begins to lick, but gives Crow a marshmallow instead-

[Ashley]

I agree with what other people said. I've been reading this board since it was first started, and I always remember reading your posts and going "man, that girl is so cool." I'm really sad to see you go, because I really think you made this board what it is. But I do understand your reasons...although I wish you'd still come back once in awhile and post. I don't really feel like I talked to you enough on here. I'll IM you sometime.